Guess what's really tiring...
to act sane all the time!!!
And yes, sometimes it really is "acting", this listening to mind, applying thought, doing the 'correct' justifiable thing, being sensible process...because the heart wants to be crazy once in a while, act, think, feel, crib, cry without catering to reason.

The toughest time in life is probably when you sit with people with whom you shared a beautiful relationship, with whom you had never ending conversations blurting out almost everything and you have nothing to say! When suddenly you feel scarcity of words. When the song at media player breaks the silence. You don't have courage to look into their eyes neither do they have. Inspite of sitting next to them you can feel the thousand mile distance in between. Sitting numb just looking at watch. Thanks to cell phone they occasionally give you an excuse to take a break. With artificial smiles on face everyone around is smiling for no reason.
In the end on a more practical note,

If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it. :(

After all is said and done, more is said than done..
PHEW!!!

see your troubles as blessing

...have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart.Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experienceing everything.At present, you need to live the question.Perhaps you'll gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.

p.s:just read these lines and really loved them and found them really true

Have done quite a few things lately,learnt people,understood them,loved a few,even hated a few. Sometimes its just nothing.There are hundred people we meet,a few we remember for long,another few cannot forget..and last few we hate to recall.But love stays,those spent moments seem fresh even at the thought of a recall..fresh enough.They keep coming back,to kill you and make you live at the same time.Can two equally strong and opposite things stay together at the same time? i dont wonder enough about it though..

we've discovered that friendship, love and laughter
are not just feelings..
these are feelings which when woven together,
create an ambience
never forgotten
remembered forever..!!!
P.S: for all of u who r a part of my life...

wierd...

i'm home..i guess for the first tym i'm blogging from home...
seems like i'm unaware of my own thoughts and what is it that i actually want to say...kinda wierd feeling when u think that for the next 6 months atleast i do not know what am i...neither a student nor a professional...what???some years before i would have loved and maybe even longed for such a time when i had absolutely nothing to think or do...but rite now this seems to be my biggest concern...OMG!!!
and yes missing everyone so much...aadat si thi roj uthte hi tum sabko dekhne ki aur tumhari aawaz sunne ki...luv u guyz!!!missing u all...