CLUELESS...yet want to write sumthing...
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In this life we all want to do what we want. Is it not?

We don't want anyone around to take control of our life, even in the smallest thing. I was almost always very certain about what I wanted in life.. which earlier usually made decisions easier. But certainly I find myself much more confused now a days then probably ever in my life... and I hate it!
Failing to figure out what exactly do I want!
Probably the most difficult thing in life is to "understand yourself"....
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Adios

4 years, 8 semesters, amidst millions of laughters, heart-aches, heart-to-hearts, arguments, walks, night-outs, discussions, leg pullings...

so many so many so many just plain so many times of togetherness...
so many people, so many faces, so many of them have become my lifeline, support system, hot dial list, a part of my life and a part of my being...
so many emotions, so many fights: silent, verbal and physical ;)
so many times the eyes just welled up thinking, reading a line or a message, writing...
so many attempts for something different and something new and something i will call a to-do...
so many lessons taken, so many let-gos and moving on...
sometimes, it is so easy to move on, sometimes you just don't want to and sometimes, you just can't!
sometimes, it is an overload of feelings, sometimes you have mixed feelings and sometimes, you just simply fail to feel in the moment...
sometimes, you have so many words you fail to take a pick, sometimes words fail you completely and sometimes, well you are just plain SPEECHLESS!
I guess then for me, it is an Adios with a smile :)

Some things are just meant to be…accept them…
Stop your inner strife
Don’t battle with your life
What will be,will be
You can’t find every lock’s key
So sometimes just giggle with glee
You are capable,you are good…believe it.
You deserve a beautiful life…accept it
You deserve love…value it…
There is joy in this world….feel it.
whats best
Years pass and years go...
Some are fast and some are slow
Each had moments of smiles and tears
Of actualization of dreams as well as fears
Yet its all exciting isn't it?
To have a place where you fit.

gimme a break...

i want my mind to take a break...

Break from recollections, reminisces, retrospections etc. etc.

Break from inferences, implications, imaginations etc. etc.

Break also from the frequent numbnessss....

I wish it just refuses to process and articulate any of my thoughts...

Thoughts...yes, they'r on a full swing!

Every sight, every experience, every 'first', every 'last'

Makes me want to capture it forever...in a picture, poem, journal...

Yet, rite now I want to let them all go by...

i simply want my mind to take a break...

L.I.F.E

Life, they say is a series of moments…

Moments we dream of and live for, moments when we live those moments and then moments of recollecting, reminiscing and reliving the bygone…

Life, they say is not about milestones, it’s about those moments…

Moments of expectations being met, fantasies and reveries coming true…

Moments in which a part or whole of it materializes…a part or whole of our being unfolds…

Then there are leading moments of disenchantment or trailing moments of retrospection…

And then moments where nothing else matters!

A smile on my face,
A tight embrace,
A shoulder to lean on,
A mind so calm,
A hand to hold,
A peaceful soul,
A long walk,
A soothing talk,
A dream in my eye,
Or a reason to feel high,
A tender touch,
I don't know much!
Something, somewhere seems to be missing ........
Sometimes it just happens.

Somewhere in Between

Somewhere between becoming the person I want to be and the person I have become;

Somewhere between looking for the right things and finding the wrong ones;

Somewhere between the time enjoyed alone and wasted in the company of others;

Somewhere between hiding the truth and convincing everyone of lies;

Somewhere between you and me,

I forgot what matters.