life's lessons---from the learned..

sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past...
stop planning the future...
stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel...
stop deciding with our mind what we want  our heart to feel...
sometimes we just have to go with...'whatever happens - happens'

I’ve had great conversations with certain people...

I’ve fallen a little more in love with each ‘me too’...

I’ve grown a little fonder with each joke we shared...

I’ve sung “wish you were here” every time I’ve felt lonely in a crowd...

I’ve had them with me too...

Only to realise ‘first times’ cannot be repeated...

The same conversations are not equally magical when you have them again...

The same people are not as desirable when you know them a little more...

'The bubble does burst under the weight of the image it reflects.

i gaze at the open skies...
they tempt me to reach out to them,
touch them and explore the meaning of those lovely hues,
how pleasant would be the view from up there?
i often wonder and spin a dream around it
but then im reminded of my clipped wings...

i awe at the vastness all around me...
i want to soar so high that i will no longer be visible to the naked eye,
spread my wings and fly over the oceans blue,
listen to the sound of waves as i glide across them,
feel the cool breeze touching me on the other side of the horizon,
but then im reminded of my clipped wings...

i want to let go of all worldly issues...
reach a stage where im no longer trapped in the clutches of materialism,
where i would be free from the evils of society and vulture eyes--
waiting to eat my carcass as i drop dead, tired from the effort,
i want to fly to another place...
to a different land afar...
soo far away that noone can ever find me...
and then im reminded of my clipped wings...

i have dreams to attain...
i have ambitions to achieve...
i have wishes to be fulfilled...
i have longings to be shared...
i have the courage to dare...
and even though im bound by these invisible chains today,
which keep reminding me of my clipped wings,
i still have the will...
the desire...
the hope...
that someday i will break free...
into a happier life...
a happier story...
a different world...

because i BELIEVE!! :)

Thinking...just too much

Life has geared up...Its become tough...irritating...frustrating...and all the words you can put in for me to tell you i am bugged!Not that i hate it....but things are happening which i dont want to be a part of...because they'r not the things i want...I know my goal(hmm am i sure)...let me just achieve that...sumtimes there is just a block in yur life..it just happens!!!

Me vs Me

I was in a crappy state of mind the last two days. All alone in the house, the thoughts just overloaded..I seemed to walk down the lane of all the years gone by…


How much I’ve changed, seriously, in beliefs, habits , attitude, take on life, friends and things in general…

I used to be a happy loner, now I dread staying alone(ok dread is an exaggeration but i dn't like it for sure)…I used to be a dreamer, an unprecedented one at that!!!..but now i'm not sure...I disregarded the rat race and loved the idea of doing things that i was passionate about, things that i really wanted...I was an innocent, naïve optimist…and now it all seems very distant. Yes, I fell in the trap…I embraced mediocrity and shunned the possibilities and let faith flow out of me…I became what they call ‘practical’. Think from the head and not your heart. In the battle though, heart always had an edge and I despised it for that. And all alone there, I was thinking what have mood swings made out of me! I am so unstable with my emotions…and somewhere, I’ve even lost touch with the real Neha, or somewhere,somehow the ties have weakened…

I want to get her back...I want to live for bigger and better things...I want my dreams back..I want to make a choice of doing those things that add more to my life...i just want to go back to be the girl i once was!!!

There and back

As the saying goes; ‘journey matters and not the destination’. But we do acknowledge, anticipate or apprehend the nature of the destination and to say the least, believe in its existence. And in the heart of hearts even look forward to one, rather optimistically.

Yet sometimes, there isn’t any. It’s an unknown road which comes back in a U-turn…
It’s not a rosy one for once. It neither has well laid directions. It is packed with confusions, misunderstood signs, and baseless predictions. It’s an expedition that one may even discard as a complete waste of time, or  one may even never feel like undertaking. It guarantees nothing. It demands nothing. It’s up for acceptance as well as rejection. It exists as an option, disguises as a compulsion and is bound to be revisited in retrospection. It’s just a choice you make.


Even when you know it’s a dead end ahead, sometimes, you just have to travel all the way, to be there by yourself and to come back, all by yourself.

To come back, to yourself...

**SURPRISE**

Ok...now this is really unexpected...i can REALLY REALLY access my blog here in Infy..:):)
Hmm...technically i should have a lot to write about at this point of time...as everone says i am into the next phase of my life...and i guess i do have lots to write but somehow again the words seem to be betraying me...
So, how have these 2 months and 7 days been????
Hmm...to be true, it doesn't really feel like its already been this long...well, i guess the infy people really know how to keep you busy enough so you do not come to know about the passage of time..and plus the weather here  just adds on, you hardly see a change in it anyday...every single day its the same hot sunny day here:(:(...oh gosh!!! i  miss the winters back home...
Do i like it here??? I think i like it in parts...there are times when i like this place..and then there are times that make me wonder why...But all in all i'm kind of settled here..ok Infy you'll have to bear me for a year...
This place is teaching me a lot of things..teaching me a lot about people, about relationships, about changes you have to face as life goes on...Personally, i have realized accepting changes is not at all easy for me(especially if it concerns people)...but it has also taught me that changes are a part of life...its a pretty stupid notion to keep that things around you are going to remain the same...and the earlier you realize this, the better it is going to be for you...and now i am at par with this fact...
And what else, hmm  i have become hell of a lazy person here...one who has been mechanically programmed into a daily routine and who just does not want to do any thing else, anything new...am giving out reasons for not doing every small thing you can ask for...
But what's the best part,you can spend your hard earned money as you wish :P (well technically it is actual hard earned money...imagine you get paid for studying...how much more wierd can it get)..But the feeling of buying a present for your mom or dad with it is just awesummm!!! The feeling just cannot be expressed in words, the happiness you get...the satisfaction you feel...so i'm really enjoying this part for sure:):)...
Nyways signing off for now...(hopefully this will work in the cuming days also)