and so i lock my dreams away...
i'm not afraid of heights, i'm just afraid of the fall...
and so i stay away from heights...
i'm not afraid of the silence, i'm just afraid of the void that deepens...
and so i try to befriend the silence...
i'm not afraid of darkness, i'm just afraid of what might be hiding in there...
and so i dare not explore the darkness...
i'm not afraid of the turbulent waves, i'm just afraid of my capacity to resist them...
and so i try to shield myself from signs of turbulence...
i'm not afraid to trust, i'm just afraid of how irreparably damaged i would be if let down...
and so in turn shy away from trust...
i'm not afraid to walk together, i'm just afraid you might disappear around the bend...
and so i attempt walking alone....
i'm not afraid to cry, i'm just afraid of the world laughing at my tears...
and so i hold back my tears...
i'm not afraid of confrontation, i'm just afraid of being misunderstood yet again...
and so i hesitate to confront...
i'm not afraid of hanging on, i'm just afraid of living a lie...
and so i am reluctant to hang on...
i'm not afraid of letting go, i'm just afraid of leaving a major part of me behind...
and so i am unable to let go...
Coward am i????
every single thing and person in this place has a shield , a way of obstructing all the pain that is bound to come , keeping silence at places doesnt mean being coward ... at times one has the right to use the way it posses to counter...thats the way of being protector of oneself...and that requires a lot of strength...its nt at alp being coward ...never...ever :)...nice post ... :)...
ReplyDeleteMaybe it is the shield..may be it is my way of protecting self...may be i give up after a while...but i try to move on..:)
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